Some of you have seen the pictures, of our trip to Leeds, and back. On the 8th of February we took a plane, that’s Francis and me, from Belfast International to Leeds Bradford. Two nights in a B&B, in a exotic (ahum) town, in a country far far away. It’s a lovely city, and the people talk funny :) Very different from Belfast…

The buildings seem to be bigger, it reminded me of Glasgow. Tall buildings, some of which were quite old. It felt more like a city than Belfast, but that’s probably due to the fact that Belfast has so many parking lots in the city centre :-p

For us it was the first time we were together on “Holiday”. We were “Practising” for our big adventure at the end of April. Two days together in Leeds might seem to you like nothing of a challenge… Until you know what it’s like to be on holiday with ME!
Saturday the 10th of February (Which was BTW my BIG brothers 21st B-Day) we were on our way to the airport (our flight would depart at 7 in the morning), minding our own business, enjoying the snowy scenery. At the airport we found out that all flights we’re cancelled due to the heavy snowfall the previous night. (Ow goody!)

… So they inserted busses …

From Leeds Bradford airport we were “deported” to Newcastle to get on the plane… So instead of a half hour flight and being home before 10 am. We were home past 12!

We are fully prepared for a trip to Holland… Via Belgium ;)

My space is under construction. But yeah… you’ve already noticed that. I’m too big of a softy to get rid of everything, but at least I can give it a better look. It started to look like my room, untidy and cluttered with stuff.

Like everyone I have had new years resolutions. Not the kind in which you promise to lose weight or stop smoking (not a bad idea actually), but the ones in which you promise to write more postcards or talk to more people on the messenger… and of course keeping my space up-to-date.

The last one didn’t really work. Nightshift is nice, but you have to work! I was shocked when I figured that one out.

Anyway… I saw I neglected my Rota’s. I’m supposed to put them up on my space every month and I haven’t been doing that. No excuses of course. I’ll try to get you up to speed with everything that’s been happening on this side of the water…

3 Months ago we had New Years Eve. The pictures are not on my space, but I’ll try to put them on during my next insomnia attack. The Dromore Dudes provided the party. 3 Guys form work, 2 Dutch and 1 German. Sweet boys, very good company especially when you want to chill out or get really drunk.
New Years Eve is a night you usually spend with your family. A night, that exists out of games, fun and fireworks. This year was different.
My family wasn’t here. It shows you what you take for granted, what you expect to be there for you. It shows you, you can handle it and the fact that you’re not alone. Friends can be family and in times like these they are the ones to share the beautiful moments with.

The party was a success! Thanks guys…

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Rain was pouring from heaven, making a rhythmic sound on the glass. Giving that cosy feeling to every one inside and cursed by every one who happened to be outside. Very typical for this time of year, but still… it seems like every thing is changing.

Drifting away on the sound of the street and the rain I was thinking about where I would be in say… a years time. What I’m doing and who I’m with. I’ve been thinking about leaving for the past 6 months. Not because I hate it here. It’s just that a lot of people around me are leaving and are giving me ideas on what I could do.
It wouldn’t be the first time. Leaving a country and building up a whole new life, it’s less difficult than people think it might be. I still think the best way of doing it is to get a job before you leave. This way you’ve covered a basic need and it gives you the opportunity to set your mind on other things. That’s exactly the way I ended up in this place.

Last year I didn’t have the things I have right now. I was happy, not with my boyfriend, not with the amount of money I could spend, but just the fact that I was my own boss. I could go wherever I wanted I could do whatever I pleased. Please don’t get me wrong I like the things I have now. I’ve got a boyfriend who treats me like a princes, a good job, enough money to spend and a roof over my head. It wasn’t ideal it was different. I wouldn’t want to go back to that life, even though it was exiting.

It’s just that I know that I’m never going to have a career and make a lot of money. And I know that when I stay here my life won’t give me a lot of satisfaction.

The people closest to you know what your hopes and dreams look like. They will support you on your quest. They are the ones that motivate you, and give you strength. I have buried my hopes and hidden my dreams. They make me sad. If your whole soul is set to one particular thing you will do anything to reach your goal. And when you still can’t reach it, you will die inside. So I’ve closed the door and put something in front of it so I can’t get in. Sometimes the door opens, just like 2 weeks ago, and the small flame called hope is turned into a roaring fire. I felt like the strongest person on earth, nothing could harm me. That’s where I got it wrong. These are the moments I’m the most vulnerable. It’s like standing on one leg, lose your balance and you’ll end up kissing the pavement. It sounds gloomy but that’s the way I look at it.

And that’s how I feel now. I thought I might pick up my education again, but those idiots don’t take foreigners. I can’t blame them, their just afraid we might leave after graduation. But it sucks!

This gives me two options… One: find a course I can apply for without too much hassle. Two: Job hop until I’ve excepted my faith and settle down.

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The weather is stormy today, the radio advises everyone to stay inside if you don’t have anything important to do. No problem. I have to work tonight so I’m entertaining myself with coffee, music, pictures and my own company. I’m pretty good company, if I may say so myself. Loving yourself is the first step to internal happiness. According to me that is. Think about it… what if you had to spend the rest of your days with someone you didn’t like. That would be pretty awful! I heard a song once, sang by a comedian. “I love me” is what the song is called. It goes like this:


It is translated so I’m sorry if it’s a bit off. The point is that you have to love yourself before you start loving someone else. The other person will be so much happier when your happy with yourself. This doesn’t mean you can stop improving yourself or that you have to be perfect. This merely means that the other person is an add-on to your life. Some(one)thing who gives your life that extra spark.

It's nearly over *cheer*
I know this is what I've been looking forward to, so I really should dry my eyes.  But it really is heavy! I woke up at 7 on the 26th . That's 7 in the morning. I just coudn't sleep anymore. And now... more than 24 hours later I'm almost finished with my first day of my 3 day week :p
The guys told me that the second day will be worst, I don't know why... we shall see. I can go home in about 10 minutes :)

Talk to you later ;)

Did I tell you guys I was knackered? Well I am... I just had my lunch... at 3 in the morning!!!! I'm almost asleep now... 3.5 hours to go

Hi ya,

I’m not going to write a whole essay this time. I don’t have a lot of time… I’ve got a bit of a busy day today. I’m going on holiday!
Tomorrow I’m flying from Belfast International to Schiphol airport. The plane leaves at 09.35 (Belfast time) and arrives 12.10 (Continental time).
… I’m going home …
This is going to be my first time since I came here 5 months ago. I’m very exited, but it still feels weird. Going home and going on holiday at the same time… Of course I’ve seen one of my brother and my parents, but I haven’t seen my other brother and his girlfriend. I can’t expect my grandmothers to fly to Belfast to see me so that’s what I’m going to do on Saturday *cheer*.
The only problem I have right now is that I’ve got a major cold right now. Snot dripping from every nostril… not a pretty sight, I can tell you.
There are a couple of things I have to do when I’m at home. But if you want to meet up that’s ok! Just call my parents (phone number is in the phone book) and so we can decide where and when we can meet up.
I’m leaving on the 6th of December. My plane will depart at 12.35 (Continental time) and arrive at Belfast International at 13.10 (Belfast time).

I hope to see you soon!

Kussz

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